It’s funny actually how similar these two are. But they when you really think about it are drastically different in outcome. They both have to do with the heart.
To be honest…I’ve had this blog for nearly two years. Only, I literally sat on it and wrote only one note. Smhhhh. I could count that as a failure…but truthfully I count it as a win. The fact is I started, despite I’ve done little writing.
Courage was there for me to start…but fear kept me silent- until now. The many thoughts of “who on earth would even care about a single girl writing her thoughts on this world” ran through my head like wildfire. I wish I could tell you what spurred me to finally pen thoughts down for you.
Fear- might keep you my friend from pursuing your dreams along with the sidekick called pride. Courage could also persuade you to wait because you process wisdom of knowing that you will miss out something precious if you left. Note- I said WILL- not might. Courage I think is knowing deeply and being convicted to follow through whatever that may be. Fear is the rampage of “what ifs” and uncertainly becoming your led feet pinning you stuck to the place you’ve long to move on from.
Sometimes simply being willing to start no matter whether you are bad or good at it is all that is needed. Grammar and spelling is not my strong suit, but it is comically how many times I’ve been asked the correct way to spell something or fix an English paper. I’m quite sure you’re laughing at me- probably plenty of errors right now as you read. But this you know…at least with my spelling and grammar I am real enough that you know I- at least am not a robot.
My friend, No matter whether or not if at last moment you gave yourself to courage or fear- you have a choice now to choose. They say you can’t fix the past, but you can at least learn from it. Learn from the past and then let it go. If the past is being held onto then in reality is- you are also hold on to some extent fear and pride. One I hadn’t thought of until I started examining why I wasn’t to let go of my what ifs and my past. I started exploring courageous what ifs, I choose to be courages and go forward explore PAST my failure and yes even my wins.
You, my friend, make probably at least a hundred thousand decision a day. How many courageous decisions have you made? I’m sure you’ve made more than you realize. Count them- small or big it doesn’t matter…and especially count the ones you’ve had to make for yourself to keep going on when you’ve wanted to give up on your dreams.